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#16. May 1, 2020 at 9:40 pm: Maryam Ali Khan, Other – Verified One.Surgery user (8)

I stare at the screen. The numbers keep rising. But I feel numb.
Inside my home, I am waking, eating, drinking like every other day with the same work and deadlines as before.
I feel disconnected to the reality of what lives outside but I still can’t stop myself from checking the news every few minutes. Anxiously checking up on social media to see how my extended family and friends are doing. Praying that all my friends in healthcare remain safe as they battle this disease day and night putting their lives on the line without knowing when and how this will end. Knowing that this can hit closer to home any day, I fear for those around me.
But this is just one aspect. I haven’t stepped out of my house in over 40 days. But I know I am lucky. Lucky to be healthy and with my family. If I need something, I have the luxury to order it online and have it delivered to my doorstep. I am privileged. I can afford to work from home and have the luxury of savings that can last me a few months. I am grateful for what I have but I also feel guilty. Guilty because I know some people have nothing. No means to put food on the table or no safe home to stay inside. And this daily struggle of gratitude and guilt takes its toll. I feel helpless knowing that I cannot reach everyone, that I cannot make things better.
So what can I do with all these unresolved feelings?! I don’t know. But writing this has made me realize something. This disease has blatantly uncovered the ever-present yet ignored cracks in our societal structure and today more than ever we need to come together.
We need to stand as One, push our apparent differences of aside, and reach the human within. We connect not because of our race or stature, but our humanity. And this disease has made us all face the One thing we always choose to ignore, that above all we are One race – the human race. Nothing else matters.

Comments on this post:
#1. May 2, 2020 at 9:24 am: Saqib Noor – Verified One.Surgery user

Dear Maryam,

That strange feeling, balancing between dedicating all your time to ensure you and your loved ones are safe, and the enormous guilt of knowing those with less resources are at tremendous risk, is increasingly familiar. I wonder how those below the poverty line are coping, in so many parts of the world, including Pakistan. I feel disconnected from their plight yet simultaneously pre-occupied with just the immediate challenges of coping myself.

I am glad you and your family are safe, and I hope there will be brighter days outside soon for you. We will all be together again 🙂

#2. May 3, 2020 at 5:26 am: Uchenna Emenogu – Verified One.Surgery user

It’s beautiful going through your diary, Maryam

Many times, we complain about the limitations imposed on us by this pandemic and life in general without considering the bigger and deeper pains faced by others.

Reading your diary has heightened my consciousness that despite the fears, pains and limitations I face, I am lucky and should always be grateful for that.

Kind regards!

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